Apparently the adult wants to talk to you also. This is coming from the big girl, actually old woman who is full of rage and betrayal. This might be one of those times when I pick up the phone and spew this sewage out to you. Even though you say it’s okay to do that, somehow it doesn’t feel okay or kind in the least. Aiming my rage toward you even if it’s not about you, just doesn’t seem right. I’m thinking I’m gonna reel that back and propel this shit toward the keyboard instead.
I’m so fucking pissed. And angry. And broken. And fierce. And vengeful. And so sad.

I’m like this really great person. Flawed like the rest of the human race but overall a great gal. I don’t need to even explain that to you. I don’t get it. I don’t get it. I don’t get it. Somedays are easier than others in having this betrayal shoved down my throat until I want to puke. Maybe today because the weather went wonky and we had this massive thunderstorm with hail and all I could think was how the universe was acting out exactly what I was feeling. Thank you Mother Earth-Mother God for that light show complete with sound effects. I was shrieking mad and pounding the earth right there with you. And those bolts of lighting are gonna go straight through his heart for hurting me so deeply.
I decided to leave my post on this blog called The Original Love Story. There is a new chapter to be included on the end of this but where it organically stopped, my life was still a love story. Now I’m not sure what it is. There can be no conclusions made yet. Maybe as I’m doing my life review when I croak will I understand really what the fuck happened.
My thoughts are so scattered, how would you follow this conversation anyway? Girl, I need Madea right now. She would make me feel better. Righteous anger always makes me feel better. Angry women burn brighter than the sun. Maybe I should break more of his shit. I need a wailing wall. A place to smash the fuck out of his belongings like he shattered me without the slightest of thought.
Damn it. The tornado sirens are going off again. I guess she has something more to say.