Monthly Archives: June 2008

realization…

yesterday, i did meditation and EFT tapping to rid myself of the sheer  terror and anxiety that i feel.  i need to write and i need the block to be gone, i have to speak regarding the past and the sexual abuse.  hopefully we are lifting the veil.  last night i slept some but woke up with that nightmare feeling, the screaming in my head.  i definitely remember dreaming about my dad, fighting with him, in a physical sense of fighting, aggression toward me, i’m little, maybe 4, i’m physically fighting, screaming, making noise.  that same scenario repeated over and over but that where is everyone, where’s my mother? my dad was forceful, unrelenting, out to get what he wanted, i was raped i know that.  i now know that i was raped a lot.

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