seeing

the disassociated, freaked out one was here for two days, we spent our episode sleeping and resting and crying and writing. at the end of day 2, the fog started to lift and i made myself take the four dogs for a snow walk down to the pond. it was beautiful and quiet. and i had the thought…once your body and soul aren’t heavy with pain, consumed with the daily and sometimes hourly struggle of coping, that it frees you up to see the beauty around you. i got to “see” the flowers in my garden as they rested and went dormant, lying under the snow, it was very spiritual and calm. they didn’t feel dead, just hibernating. i don’t often see these things for my mind is spinning in so many directions at once. it felt great. i took my clippers out and cut some seed heads to save for spring. the miracle is that mother earth makes sure that her plants can come back by providing the seedlings. this isn’t something new to most people but it is for me. always been there but i’ve been unable to see….until now.

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About Rescuing Little L

Documenting the pieces of my journey...recovery from childhood sexual abuse and cruel ignorance...the effects of those incidious acts through adulthood... until the grace of recovery transcended the trauma and shame of my past, making it possible to return to Rescue Little L.... View all posts by Rescuing Little L

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