–Martha Beck, How to Know It’s Real Love
I’m gonna keep this simple today.
I like to think that being grateful for the vast array of coping tools has created a fortuitous space for another tool to come my way. I’ve subscribed to Martha Beck‘s daily quotes for a while now, but have just in the last month taken the time to read her books. I’m barely 50 pages in to the first one and I can already tell I’ve found a new friend. Her books will be on my bookshelf and her tools will be in my purple tool bag in addition to the many fabulous people, animals, resources, books and music that have so serendipitously plopped in my lap.
My own emotions are tough enough to manage but when I smack against someone else’s confused and erratic energy, that is the ultimate challenge. Especially if its someone I dearly love.
The complexity of my past and present propel me into an instant state of frozen terror. I’d barely read her quote, as in minutes before, when my daughter arrived, confused and frustrated. So keeping the focus on myself, the DBT kicked in and immediately sensing the tension in my body, the frozen stance, I frantically begin to observe, describe and participate….3 biggies from the DBT world. It worked or at least its working. I’m not frozen, perhaps a bit off center but not too far gone that I won’t recover soon.
I sit in awe of the masters that surround me and say a quick prayer with gratitude in my heart. It feels so good to know that love can find its way past obstacles. We aren’t static, we aren’t frozen, we aren’t shackled to the patterns of the past.
Relief washes over me as I realize for a brief and fleeting moment what true hope feels like.