One of my favorite things to do is listen to webcasts and internet radio interviews. It is there that I can find my favorite people and specific topics that are not only informative but soothing. Once I put the earbuds in and close my eyes, its as if the voices are speaking just to me.
Recently I listened to a online interview with Doreen Virtue, the angel counselor and author. She, of course, was speaking about her angel therapy; how to recognize and interact with the angels around us. Her gift is so awesome. I always find her so reassuring and so certain of the presence of angels and ethereal helpers that I find I can ride along just on her faith. At times when I’m questioning myself, I find her, God or whoever is in charge of angels more believable than my own heart. I can very clearly picture Doreen as a divine messenger, fluent in the language of the angels spreading the love around us with ease and grace. Its a role that I can see bestowed upon another, someone more deserving, someone more enlightened. That makes sense to me in a self deprecating sort of way.
One phrase in particular that she said made me perk up and pay attention. I’m loosely paraphrasing here but the message is exact. She stated that once you feel that you are communicating with your angels, once you find your magic that you should run to the angels. Don’t hesitate, just run to them.
Wow…what a beautiful message! Run to the angels. YES! I love it, I’m gonna do that….OK, how do I do that?
Holding onto that message throughout the last few days, I play with the idea of a meet and greet with my angels. Let me back up and say here that I’ve always felt a presence, a energy bigger than myself, front and center in my life. I don’t doubt that for a moment….it might be them, spirit guides, my beloved mother, God or a collection of all of them. I do recognize their magic in just the beauty and abundance around me in my everyday life. But I want to take this to a more intimate level and am wholly intrigued with a more up front and personal relationship with my angels and how exactly I’m gonna run to them.
So, I go outside this morning and and under my favorite tree to see if I can summon up any thoughts on this angel thing. I begin to picture them there, all around me; bobbing around, floating, hovering like little baby fairies. But wait, I can’t run to them if I make them little, I will squish them. OK, back to the visualization… I need to work with my human and literalist personality here….I close my eyes and make them bigger, more human adult size and dang, all I can picture is one of those sappy movie scenes where the two lovers are running through a field of daisies with orchestra music in the background. I smack into one of my angels and we fall to the ground laughing. Sigh. This really needs some work.
I’m definitely a work in progress. Incorporating time with the angels is something I will add to my life but for now, I need to relax a bit and stop trying so hard. I recall how Charlie Brown felt when he suddenly was “aware of his tongue”. He stood still, somewhat frozen as he described the feeling of being aware of something that has been there all along. His tongue, this meaty mass of connective tissue has been present every day for him, helping him swallow and chew, keeping things flowing in his mouth department. But with a crazy flash of awareness, he doesn’t know what to do with it now. So he stays still until he and his tongue reintegrate finally relaxing and moving on with his comic strip day.
I understand that. I have suddenly been made aware of my angels again. No doubt I must be a very frustrating subject for my angelic helpers because I tend to get the more overt signs like billboards and bull horns, usually missing the subtle signs completely. Thank God they are patient entities that look at my bumbling and stumbling with love and endearment. Last year this time, they sent me an owl to stay with me for weeks until I finally saw that beautiful gesture for the magic that it was. I did get it, but it took me a while. But what I lack in natural aptitude I do make up with genuine love and willingness.
So, I come inside after my episode of angel bumping in my yard and sit. Rosie hops on my lap and we close our eyes. We opt for prayers of gratitude and sending love out to the people in my life. This seems like a more appropriate way for me to connect in this moment. I’ll stop trying so hard and let the love flow through me. I’m thinking this will make us all happy for now.