Unlike my usual self, this will be short and to the point.
No graphic, triggering details. Just the facts.
Haven’t slept well in days, watched the clock go from 2 am to 3 am to 4 am….Tons of body sensations on my skin, in my brain. I’ve gnawed at my fingernails and took my anxiety meds. Practiced DBT and trauma release exercises. I’ve been through this enough now to know what is happening and how it will play itself out. I’ve identified it, named it and tackled it.
In other words, I’ve got this covered. I have tools and support. The memory still came in my sleep disguised as a writhing rattlesnake in my mouth. That’s what I woke up to was the feeling of it in my mouth and that’s what I’ve spent the day shaking off. Doesn’t take an expert in dream interpretation to figure out this awful phallic metaphor.
But you know what? Its okay. Today, I can hold onto my soul and refuse to let you have it. I’m gonna kick the demon in the ass today and let it know who is really the boss around here.
I’m the alpha bitch and that’s just the way it is.
You go girl.
Thanks Merry….Towanda!
Go get ’em! Sometimes we got rise up and let the Alpha Bitch loose!
amen sista!
Stand your ground, rally your troupe, and know that you’re not alone!
Thanks pal….we make good warriors (when necessary)….
Yes!
~Love~
That a girl….that’s what I like to hear!!!
Thanks girl….I’m going ninja warrior on this stuff….Towanda!
~smile~
~smiling back~
Excellent, excellent, wonderful post, Alpha Bitch 🙂
Thanks fellow warrior…
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